My nanny had a playdate with my best friend

My nanny had a playdate with my best friend.  Let me say that again: last Thursday, my nanny and my two kiddos met my best friend and her kiddos for a playdate at a play space. 

My heart was literally split in two; my emotions were divided down the middle.  I was happy and sad all at the same time.  I was jealous.  I was thrilled.  I had FOMO.  I was grateful. 

As a working mom, I sometimes get home at night and scroll through social media to see pictures of playdates or girls’ outings that occurred throughout the day.  On the one hand, I feel sad; I feel like I missed out.  I feel like I don’t have a core group of friends because my day is spent at work.  However, on the other hand, I was at work--running meetings, being a leader, interacting with other like-minded professionals, and growing my career.  Neither is right, neither is wrong.  Last Thursday I was reminded of just that. 

I was so thrilled to have a nanny that I love and trust and who is truly a part of my family.  A nanny who is comfortable interacting with my best friend and spending time with her on a playdate.  I was so happy that my son and my best friend’s son and my daughter and my best friend’s daughter--who are all very similar in age--were able to have a day together.  I can only hope that we are helping them to be next-generation besties as well.  But I must admit that I was sad, too.  That should have been me, not my nanny.  I was sad to miss out on that time to see our kids interact and to be with my best friend.  I was sad that my best friend was documenting our kids interacting and I was getting still photos and videos at my desk while they were there in person.  

But, at the end of the day, I was fulfilled.  I was fulfilled that my kids were able to have this experience with their friends, and that I have a village to facilitate such a special outing, and that I could continue to work so I can provide for my children.  I can only hope that my nanny has more play dates with my best friend in the future…and maybe I’ll even crash one or two.